The FINAL Countdown!

Bada-bum-bum!...........Bada-bum-bum-bum!........ (You know you're singing it too...)

So it's the FINAL FIVE!! I can't believe it. So this afternoon I decided it was a great time to drive downtown to the temple...because we got about 4-5" of snow that morning... Yeah. But I made the trek and drove downtown.... it only took 45 minutes to get there.. :)

Well anyway, a funny thing happened. When I was getting back into my car later, I opened the passenger door to put my bag in, and my phone, which was left in the car was ringing. I looked and it was a really wierd number AND wierd area code. I decided to answer it anyway. I said "Hello?" and a strangely familiar voice returned with a "Hi! How are you?" It was then I realized that it was BLEU! Calling on a Saturday. :) So I said "good, how are you?"

And we got cut off. Neat, huh?? I tried to call back and it was busy, then I called again and we talked for another 45 seconds and got cut off again..... They were allowed to use a payphone for some reason I didn't get. We did get to talk for about 4 minutes, and he told me that there was a long line of people waiting to use the phone. So we said our goodbyes untill tomorrow. It was pretty neat that I was getting out of the temple at just the right time! The funny thing is that it took me so long to get there that I almost didn't make it into the session. So I'm super glad that I made it or I wouldn't have been able to talk to him!!

Tonight was our Ward Christmas Party. Ryan Dent called (Home Teacher, Thanksgiving) and asked if I would give Jenny and the kids a ride over because he needed to come later. So I went over and Jenny and I packed the carseats over to my car, buckled everyone in and they were my family for tonight. The Primary was asked to do a Nativity and a Song for the Program so the Primary Presidency and I rounded the kids up and put them into costumes. One of the teachers read the Christmas Story out of the Scriptures and then we sang The Nativity Song. It was pretty cute. It's funny how they are so loud in the Primary Room and then in the Chapel and the Gym they get scared and sing quiet. But they did a good job.

So that's all for now, I will probably be updating soon. Love you all, and enjoy the Season!

Thanksgiving with the Dent's

Well, I guess I should put some pictures on here, huh? I was able to spend Thanksgiving Day with the Dent Family in my Ward. Jenny (mom) is my visiting teacher and is the sweetest person I know and Ryan (dad) is my home teacher and would do anything for anyone. Brielle (daughter) is one of my two Sunbeams in Primary-that girl knows all of the songs better than most of my kids! Daniel (son) is in nursery and started going while I was working in the nursery. Jenny tells me that he has a little bit of a hard time without me there to console him and play with him. It's so cute. Bleu and I have babysat for them a number of times and we both just love the family. We sit next to them sometimes and give the kids attention or I watch the kids when Jenny needs to get up for something... Etc. We are all good friends.

So Ryan and Jenny invited me over for Thanksgiving dinner with them and Jenny and I split up the meal. I was so proud of my Pecan Pie that I just had to take a picture. This is my first pie made totally by myself with no supervision - crust and all! TADA!! I was So very proud of it.... even though it spilled in the oven and was a little crunchy on top, but I thought it was beautiful, mostly because I was so relieved that it actually worked! I even rolled the crust with a glass because I don't have a rolling pin. LOL....

And here are the children. Jenny is funny and she wanted everything set on a table all fancy and take a picture, because she was also very proud of all of her hard work. ( I don't blame her... the turkey looked Amazing! ) And so Ryan and Jenny were going back and forth "I want to take a picture" "but Jenny, we are all starving" "oh, this needs to be a little higher so we can see it. Make sure you get everything in the picture" I thought it was funny. But the Kids and I sat at the table and I entertained them by showing them the pictures on my cell phone of Bleu. It was so cute, every picture of Bleu I showed Daniel he would say "Boooo?" So cute! They loved getting thier pictures taken, too.

So we ate and sat for a while. For some reason I was absolutely hilarious to Daniel. I would "walk" my fingers up his arm, and then tickle his neck or face, or whatever and he would laugh and squirm, and then put his arm out for me and say "gen?" We went on like that for at least 10 minutes. It was so funny.

Well we timed dinner / lunch so that when we were done it would be time for the kids' naps so Jenny could clean up, and get some rest, herself. She's about 6 or 7 months pregnant. So we cleaned up and then I headed off to Preston and visited Nan and Katie over night. Katie and I went shopping in Logan on Friday and had a lot of fun. I was planning on going home to see mom and dad, but I was so tired of traveling ( since that's what I had done three weekends in a row) that I had to skip out on that part and just went home Friday night. It was a good weekend, though. It was nice to have a Saturday at home for once and get ready for Primary and work.

I was able to talk to Bleu on the phone a lot on Thanksgiving and the day after. I was spoiled but it made the next week hard waiting so long for the next Sunday to get to talk to him again. I was happy for the opportunity to spend a little bit of Thanksgiving with him over the miles. All in all it turned out to be a pretty good Holiday.

Merry Christmas TAG-aroo

Who says you can stop being greatful as soon as the Turkey leftovers go bad?? I have been paying closer attention to all of my wonderful blessings this year and I think it's great to share those things that help us learn and grow. So- follow my lead. Name off the things that you have been greatful for particularly this past year. It's eye-opening!!

My Husband
Enthusiasm in Primary
Relief Society
Random memories that keep me going
Yesterday (is done and today is fresh-with no mistakes)

Children and the love and faith that they have
Home Teachers
Righteous Desires
I Love You-the three most powerful words I know
Siblings-we really did grow up to be best friends!
Time- sometimes it flies, other times it crawls.
Mothers-and learning all of the things she said were right.
Acedemics-and being done with them.
Sickness-the morning kind that lasts all day, a constant reminder that I am still pregnant.

People I'm tagging, EVERYONE-EVEN HUSBANDS AND KIDS!

Merry Christmas, everyone. I love you all so much!

It's a lot of Work!

Hey family, I spent most of the day (5 hours) at my friend Stephanie's house. And you'll never guess what we did!! We had our very own little recording session! Yippee!

I got a CD with some Christmas music on it yesterday and went through and found out what lyrics I needed and how many verses I had to find on the various lyric websites.. I did all that last night, and some of the music I didn't even get to listen to the whole way through before I started recording> YIKES! I was a little unprepared, but you know, that's how I roll! : ) Haha.

So I went over-Stephanie and her sister, Jacqueline, have transformed a closet into a recording studio. It's pretty hillarious. I'll have to take pictures next time I go over. They have eggshell padding on all of the walls and ceiling and door, but the door doesn't close because of the cords and a table sticks out into the doorway...... But it works! LOL. So here I am with my headphones and a very scary microphone and screen in front of me thinking, "woah, this is almost official!" So that's scary in itself, but because the door doesn't close, out of the corner of my eye I can see Stephanie sitting on her chair right outside the door with her laptop and headphones and wires set up on a TV tray. So I can't really just pretend that I'm alone, because she's right there. AND, if I look the other way, across the room, the wall has full length mirrors so I see myself with all of this scary equipment. So......... I stared at the Eggshell Foam, which is surprisingly comforting. LOL....

Well my first song was rough. First off I was nervous, and it was a "nice song" and not just a carol. So I wanted it to be pretty good. That one took a long time. When we finally finished, we looked at the time and it had taken about 1 1/2 hours maybe more. I thought "holy crap! that was forever!" And Stephanie said that we made GREAT time! So in total we got through 4 songs in 4 hours because the others were just carols that didn't need tons of work. So I just sang them pretty straight. But we were excited at how fast we got them done, judging from the first one.

It was really tiring singing the same two lines over and over and over again and still hating it. It was an interesting process to see, though. I was really tired by the end but it was pretty fun to get to do something that has been on my little "I wish I could" list. I think I might do it again with other music, but maybe later.

News From the Hawkley's

It's been a while since I updated everyone on how Bleu is doing. I've been able to talk to him on the phone every Sunday after church for about an hour. It's been interesting talking to him and read his letters through Basic Training. The first few weeks were pretty tough on him. Bleu is really smart and experienced in alot of things, so everything that they are learning......he already knows how to do. Climb, repell, shoot, physical fitness, running, wrestling, etc. He says that they break everything down step-by-step and he already knows how to do it. So it's hard for him to be patient with the others that are having a hard time because they have never done these things before. I think it's good for him to be patient. He has already passed his PT score, and right now is the Squad Leader. He's doing much better at his situps, pushups and 2 mile than he was at drill (I thought he was doing great at Drill!)
We exchange letters often, but the mail is so slow getting here. He gets my letters in about two days and his take a little less than two weeks to get to me. So I try and write to him about every other day. He still asks me to tell other people to write to him. The only thing that keeps him going is to know that people care about him. They don't get alot of time to write, so if anyone writes him (please do) he might not be able to write back to you. But please do write.
He has a friend there that is from Lehi, and his wife's Parents live in South Carolina. So she (Grace-Ann) is flying out for Christmas and staying for graduation. So they have offered to give me a place to stay during graduation so we can save a couple hundred bucks. Grace-Ann has offered to pick me up and drop me off at the airport. She also gave me a tip-that if I fly into Charlotte, NC instead of Columbia, SC it would be cheaper. It was and I bought my Ticket today.
We are both really excited for Christmas and to spend as much time together as we can before he leaves. I have a countdown chain at work :)

As for me, I do pretty good. It's week #12 and I'm feeling the sickness more now. I try to stick to an eating schedule to keep it mild, and get plenty of sleep. I'm loving the Primary right now-we have alot of fun together and for some reasong the overall favorite song is Head Shoulders Kneed and Toes. Who knew? Maybe because I make everyone in the room perticipate.
I am usually pretty tired when I come home from work so if I go anywhere it's not for long and usually involves groceries and gas. I'm using the ol' rubber band trick on my jeans for now and I notice a few people at work keeping thier eyes on me. I was asking to our Receptionist, Gloria about how far along another gilr at work is and she said "And when are you going to tell me?" :) She said that she had noticed in the last little while and was waiting for me to speak up but couldn't wait anymore. She's a funny lady. But I am starting to show; if I wear a baggy shirt it's not so noticable. I think that after my appointment next Monday I will feel even more secure about the pregnancy and will be more comfortable telling people about it. Bleu and I have pretty much decided that we will be surprized about the sex of the baby because we want Bleu to be here for that. Well, because I will be around 15 or 16 weeks while he's home for Christmas. And since they usually do that ultrasound at 20 weeks we decided to just have a surprize.

So that's the news for us right now. I will try and keep up to date often so that everyone can hear how we are doing. So.... stay tuned, we love you all and thank you so much for all of the love and support that you give us.

BIGGER HINT!!

Okay, Family.

I know how much everyone loves Bleu and me. I talked to him on the phone again yesterday. He seems to be doing better with thinking that everything is dumb, and hating life. He really misses me and says that I'm the only thing that keeps him going because I'm the only one who writes him letters. He's having a pretty rough time and feels like he needs more support. PLEASE, PLEASE PLEASE send him some mail. It's the only thing that they have to look forward to and he doesn't get very much. I do what I can, but I really can't send him a letter every single day. He needs to hear from other people. It only takes a few days to get to him, but his letters take a few WEEKS to get to me. So if you plan on writing more than one, don't wait for a response before writing again. Tell the kids that he needs letters, too. I think he would love that. His address is a few posts down so scroll down, copy it, and start a letter. PLEASE.

I love you all and thankyou for the support you give me.

I Got a Phone Call!!

Today was the Primary Program in sacrement. When the closing prayer was said, I was getting all of my music and posters together, when Sara came up to me (which was a surprise because her Single's Ward starts at 1 and it was barely 12) and said "Bleu wants you to call him now. He called at 11 but I wasn't going to come up here in the middle of the program, plus I wasn't even dressed."

Of course-the one time that I am away from my phone for more than 5 minutes, and that's the time he calls. I got my phone from my bag and the screen said 17 missed calls. I opened it fast and the last one was sent one minute before. So I called and got the answering machine. I started to cry right there at the front of the chaple. He sent me a text message telling me to call and two voice mails. So teary-eyed, I headed for the door calling my voicemail when my phone started vibrating and I saw that it was him. So we got to talk on the phone for about an hour. It was good to hear his voice again, but he sounds tired and "sick and tired." He told me that he's hungry and that they get 3 meals a day. The food's not that good, but he likes (and by "likes" he means that he hates it the least ) breakfast. He gets gritts, bacon, eggs, and pancakes. "It's better than the other stuff they give us." he says.

He asked if I had gotten any of his letters and that the first day they got mail, one girl got 12 letters from her family in one day. I asked him if he's gotten any and he said "None." So he's feeling pretty neglected. So PLEASE send him some mail as soon as you can, he would really appreciate it.

Well that's pretty much it for now. I'm finishing up a letter for him today so I can send it tomorrow. So maybe for Family Home Evening, since the Primary is learning about being Thankful, they can tell the military how geatful they are for this free country that we live in. (Hint: please send him mail.)

Forgot to Include

I wanted to include Bleu's address so that if any of you want to write to him you can. They say that mail is something that they look forward to every day. So I'm going to try and write as often as I can, but I think letters from family would be great, too.

Prt Hawkley Bleu
C Co. 3/60 INF RGT
BLDG 5482
3 Plt Black Knights
Fort Jackson, SC 29207

Report from Prt. Hawkley

Well I finally got my first letter from Bleu today. YIPEE!! He said that the first few days were pretty bad. And pretty bad to Bleu means that they stood in lines all day. The first night they went to be at 12:30 and were woken up at 4.

He says that there are even more stupid people there than at drill and "the drill sargeants ar on fatty ego trips with post-traumatic stress so they blow up over everything." I was expecting that. There is lots of swearing, I was expecting that.

He is excited to say that Private Brown (really dumb and annoying 18 yr old kid who thinks he knows everything but really knows nothing) is not in his group. I think that was all he cared about, so I'm glad, too. There might be a slim chance that they will be able to use thier cell phones, most likely when they are off for church-I was NOT expecting that, but I'll take it!!

Thier group was given the three toughest Drill Sargeants, which I was VERY pleased to hear. It will be hard, but I think that means that he will come back that much better and they will be very well prepared and trained.

He said he wants to buy some spandex to wear for exercising because they were giving him "crap" about his garments---I told him to Buck up. :)

Sargeant Keegan made me promise that I would write "DROP" on the envelope so he will have to "drop" and do pushups before he gets his letter. I kissed it for extra measure. I like to be thorough. He might have to do an extra 20 for that. :)

Well that's the news for now, as for me, people at work and church ask me how I'm doing and to be honest, I'm doing much better than I thought I would. I'm playing the piano, and reading books and just relaxing. It's definately been QUIET, but I'm doing pretty good. It actually feels reassuring that I can take care of myself. I can pay rent and bills and insurance and phone and everything. I can go shopping by myself WITHOUT buying any candy (for once). I thought that I would have a huge gap of time to fill every day where I would just sit and think about Bleu and miss him and feel sorry for myself, but I don't. I fill my time pretty well and I do think about him and miss him sometimes but it's not like I thought it would be. It will be great to have him home for Christmas, but I am doing much much better than I was Dreading. :) But I'm not going to lie, I will probably cry like a baby AGAIN when he leaves AGAIN. But we will just take it one day at a time and keep on trudging down the road.

Love you!

Tag from Tammy

8 TV shows I love to watch
1. Scrubs
2. Dirty Jobs
3. Myth Busters
4. Umm that's even a stretch. I just don't watch TV.

8 favorite places I love to eat
1. At home with Bleu
2. Cafe' Rio
3. Applesbee's
4. Chiles
5. Red Lobster
6. Mom's house
7. anywhere with the family
8. ??

8 things that happened yesterday
1. Slept in (ahhhh)
2. Had a real breakfast-eggs and toast with mom
3. Took a hot shower (ahhhh)
4. beautified myself without hearing "are you done yet?" (ahhhhh)
5. went to a play with mom and Sara - Into the Woods
6. Set up and decorated for the Ward Chilli Cook off.
7. Stayed as long as I could stand and then some.
8. Went home and watched Enchanted with Sara and Mom

8 things I look forward to
1. Bleu coming home
2. December
3. Christmas
4. June
5. Kids
6. My Fridays off
7. Having more space
8. Bedtime

8 things I love about Fall
1. Crisp air
2. Pretty Leaves
3. wearing jackets and scarves
4. Thanksgiving
5. Halloween
6. Rain
7. The Smells
8. It reminds me of when Bleu and I were dating.

8 material things on my wish list
1. My Student Loans paid off
2. A house
3. New clothes
4. Season Tickets to Desert Star
5. Food Storage
6. a room for myself to do projects in like sewing or reupholstering
7. a Desktop Computer
8. an office to put it in where I can do bills and have everything orgainized

8 people I'm tagging
1. Nan
2. Torrie
3. Camille
4. Katie
5. Trina
6. Jennifer
7. Jamie
8. Raelynn

CONVERSATIONS

So this is my curiosity. And another way to get the ball rolling.... again.

What do you talk with your spouse about?? Obviously if you work at different places, or one works and the other stays at home, you talk about what you did during the day. Aside from the day-to-day things, what conversations do you have? How do you verbally express appreciation to eachother, what are the little things that build eachother up??

okay, I can tell you're thinking about it, now go! comment, post, blog, you bloggers, BLOG!!

Tiggety Tag!

This one is way fun. I saw it on a friend's blog and I learned a lot about her. Please fill out one for yourself on your blogs!!

I think: About things all the time. They don't even have to be important things. My mind is always going ninety miles an hour. The sad part is that usually it never about anything important or what I should be thinking about. I think about my life, husband, family, friends, world, the choices we've made..... But then I think about what we are having for dinner, what there is in the fridge, in the cupboards,...... I think my mind might explode one day!!

I know: that Heavenly Father knows all of my thoughts and is probably thinking-Mickaela, you silly, silly girl. Haven't we been through this SO MANY times?? RELAX and enjoy life. I know who I am and I know He LOVES me more than I could mortally understand. I know that He has a specific plan just for me and our little family and I know that whatever happens, He's aware of me.

I want: SO many things! I feel selfish saying what I want because I AM the youngest and people think that I get whatever I want but I really don't. I want to be a wonderful person inside and out, I want to be an amazing wife and mother, I want to have a SUPER close relationship with my husband - closer than anyone, I want to make a difference, I want to be an example for good, I want to learn to sew, cook, keep the house clean for more than an hour, I want to keep the closeness that I have with my sisters.... the list could go on forever.

I have: A wonderful life!!! I have a husband who loves me and would do anything for me, a whole family who raised me with lots of love, I have a roof over my head, food in my cupboards, clothes on my back, a job, money in the bank, DEBT, I have an excitement for life and the crazy things that go on in it, I have Desire, and a Testimony.

I wish: There were more hours in a day so that I could do all of the things that I want to do! I wish I would have started school when I was 18 instead of 20. I wish I would have listened to my heart when it told me This is a very bad IDEA!! I wish I was wonder woman and could do everything at once.

I hate: When people are fake, snide, rude, unjust, belittleing, cheap, selfish. I hate when I feel Satan's presence and know that he is fighting to chase the Spirit away just as hard as I am praying for it to stay with me. I hate feeling like I'm anything less than great or that I CAN"T.

I miss: My family sometimes when I'm alone thinking about all of the fun we had when we were kids. I miss getting into trouble and trading corners when mom and dad weren't looking, playing school with Katie and Trina, fighting with Katie and Trina, telling Katie "you're not my mom!" I miss mom's chocolate chip cookie bars and how we had to eat them while they were hot or they would be too hard, getting up to get a drink, and ending up getting a drink for the entire family, getting lost in the wilderness on a "short cut"

I fear: Losing my family.

I smell: Nothing unless I'm really close to it, or I'm pregnant.

I crave: Mom's Sausage and Rice Casserole, Pork Chops n Rice, Sweedish Meatballs, Sweet n Sour Meatballs, homemade huckleberry ice cream...... Anything cooked over the fire.

I search: For my phone, my keys, my pen, my other shoe, my purse........ pretty much everything because I forget where I put everything....... until Bleu finds it, then I remember putting it there. and then he laughs at me.

I wonder: What Heavenly Father has in store for me. I have lots of clues and ideas, but I still wonder.

I regret: Mickey. And a few others that I let lead me on and make me feel like the least important human on earth.

I love: My Family, the sunshine, FOOD, playing, progressing, laughing till it hurts, hearing babies giggle, watching the first attempts, cheering on people I love, comforting those I love.

I care: too much sometimes. I care about what people think when I shouldn't. I care deeply for people around me, and my family.

I always: try not to give up. Sometimes all I want to do is just give up. And I ALWAYS try not to. I have to keep going and keep pushing no matter how hard it is.

I am not: a conformist. I don't do what everyone else does just because everyone else is doing it. If I want to do something, I'll do it. I have developed into a pretty uniquely stubborn individual and if I feel like doing something, I'm going to do it. I don't do it just to be different from everyone for spite, but I do the things I do for my reasons - not just to be different -

I believe: in God, Jesus Christ, The Spirit, Bleu and Me. I believe that God has a plan for me, for us. I believe that Christ hung on the cross and bled for me. I believe that the Spirit is with me when I invite him in. I believe Bleu when he tells me how wonderful I am and how much he loves me. I believe that God is watching and that our son/daughter is cheering us on to the finish line.

I dance: with Bleu. and that's almost the only time I feel comfortable dancing. I don't dance alone very often, but when I do, it's only for select people cause it's just down right strange.

I sing: constantly. I am always singing either out loud or in my head. I love it. It's one thing that I absolutely love to do.

I don't always: have a deep desire to clean. Sometimes I just feel like leaving the dishes, leaving the laundry, not showering, and just staying in bed and cuddling with my husband. I guess it's okay because he hasn't complained yet.

I write: what I am thinking in the moment that I write. I write whatever is bothering me, what is perplexing me, what is making me happy, sad, mad. I write stories, I write what happens between me and other people. I write lists constantly. To do lists, Grocery lists, I write lyrics to songs I already know.

I lose: faith in myself. I loose sight of all of the good things about me and get caught up in the things that aren't perfect. I lose my keys, my phone, my purse, and pretty much whatever I need at the moment.

I win: Zilch when I play against Bleu. Haha.

I never: want to grow up completely. I never want to grow old in my heart, I never want to stop acting like a newlywed, I never want to stop loving, I never want to give up on anything or anyone.

I listen: to the Spirit and try to know what I should do. I listen to Bleu and know that he is listening to the Spirit, too.

I can usually be found: wherever Bleu is. We spend more time together than I have ever spent with anyone EVER and I can't get enough of him. It amazes me how we've known eachother for two years, been married for seven months, spend as much time as possible together and I would still rather be with him than anybody else in the world. I love him so much.

I am scared: of heights, because I hate the feeling of falling, and I'm scared of mirrors in the dark. It's just about the creepiest thing I can think of.

I need: positive reinforcement. Negetivity sticks like honey and I need to be positive, and someone to be positive with me even when I'm covered in honey. Sometimes it's really hard for me to be positive especially when it comes to myself. I beat myself up about everything and Satan takes every opportunity he can get to make me feel like I'm not great. It's easy to see the good in others-it's better to show it to them.

I am happy about: where my life is going, who I have to share my life with, the choices I have made, the people I have around me, the love that I share.

TAG*** What's Your Favorite Memory of ME??

Here's how it works:
1. As a comment on my blog, leave a memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember, good or bad but be nice please! ;)
2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog. If you don't want to play on your blog, or if you don't have a blog, I'll leave my memory of you in my comments. I hope all of you faithful readers have some good memories of me.

Tagged from Katie

These are the rules: You must post the rules before you give your answers. You must list one fact about yourself for each letter of your middle name. Each fact must begin with that letter. If you don't have a middle name, just use your maiden name. After you've been tagged, you need to update your blog with your middle name and answers. At the end of your post, you need to tag one person for each letter of your middle name. Be sure to leave them a comment telling them they've been tagged and need to read your blog for details.

Melodramatic
Admirable
Rediculous
Idiotic
Enthusiastic

I am tagging Cheena, Torrie, Camille, Jamie, and Mom

Another fun Game!!

A Decade ago I was.....
13 years old. HAHA!! I was in middle school and the only thing on my mind was my super big crush on rhett barney, getting straight A's, and trying to be POPULAR!!! blah. I'm way over that now. If you don't like me, it's your own fault. I am who I am and if you don't like it, too bad!!

5 Things on my to do list.....
1 Go home and kiss my husband
2 Laundry/pack
3 Finally print my wedding pictures and put them in an album and put some in the frames from the receptions.
4 Organize my house
5 Play all summer with my hubby (games, people.......like softball, tennis, hiking...)

5 Places I've lived....
1. Shelley, ID with mommy and daddy
2. Bakersfield, CA with sister torrie
3. Pocatello, ID with friends from work
4. Salt Lake City, Ut with wierd roomates, fun roomates, and a really fun roomate who won't let me call him his roomate.

5 Things people don't know about me...
1. sometimes i'm very shy
2. i hate having attention drawn to me (i act like i do so i'm not so uncomfortable with it.)
3. i feel like i'm failing most of the time
4. i am SO afraid of heights!
5. i am afraid of mirrors in the dark. it really really creeps my out!!

I'm tagging nan and lynette.

Baby, It Ain't Over til It's Over!

I have been submerged in Interior Design for the past 2 years, and Baby, IT'S OVER!! WOOOHOOO!!!! I can't tell who's more excited for me to graduate: me, or Bleu. There was a Portfolio awards ceremony thursday night, and a few of my friends asked Bleu how he was feeling about me graduating. He always said "I'm WAY excited! I get a WIFE! I've never had one before!" :) I'm excited too. So the big day finally came and went. We set up our presentations from 7 to 9 am and waited ever so impatiently for the judging to finish. I could care less if I had won any awards, I just wanted to PASS!! With everything that we've been through in the past three or four months, I am thrilled just to pass and move on.

But first, a funny story:

The night before Portfolio, I came home from class early to get everything ready for the next morning. Once I ate and settled down, I realized that I would finally be setting up. Excited, however I had not gone to get easels or anything to set up. so I called Michael's to see when they close-9:00. It was 8:30 and it takes 20 minutes to get there. So i was on my way out the door, and Bleu was giving me the "what are you thinking?" look. He said "you are really going to buy easels? why didn't you do this last week?" I really didn't want to talk to him at that moment because he already knew what I was doing last week. GRRRR> so now i'm thinking, "what am i going to do now?" So I put my things down and took a few breaths and decided to put my creativity to the test.

I said "I need some boxes.....and stuff" I used my bifold doors that dad fixed up for the wedding, boxes from the kitchen and my closet, some baskets that we kept for no reason, a scarf, glove, pearl neclace, a margarita glass with sand inside, toy dinosaurs, a stuffed monkey, a woven garbage container, a caserole dish, a clock, a plant, a spaghetti strainer, place settings, a mason jar filled with macoroni noodles, spice jars, and a piece of fabric that i've had laying around for about 4 years. i even used our family photo to hold up one of my boards! oh, and Camille, thanks for the table cloth and place settings!! they were the crown.

It was definately interesting, and Bleu was making fun of me the whole time, but you know, it worked. and it's my style. It was definately different from anyone else's display, and a lot of the girls said how much it matched my personality. I didn't win anything, but I finished! And that's all that matters to me.

I even got a passing grade from Miles, the instructor and Director of the program. Not my best grade, but a passing grade.

Here's a few more closer pictures of each board and it's decor. Just a better look.

Bleu's Birthday!!

Bleu was very specific on what he wanted for his birthday-to swear in to the Army National Guard, and a 9mm Pistol.

SO............

He was up and out of the house by 5:30 AM and at the doctor's for half of the day. He said there was lots of "poking, prodding, turning and coughing." I was able to join in on the fun around 2:00 and go to the Army Headquarters where all of the paper work and swearing in took place. I had little butterflies in my stomach, and Sergent Keegan actually had to remind me to breathe.

After all of that fun stuff, we drove down to Cabella's to the gun show and he found a gun. There was no fighting it, so I just let him get it. Later we went to dinner. I had arranged for a couple to meet us there, because it was her Birthday, too. They were supposed to be there at 6:30, and we got tired of waiting, ate, and left at 8. We all met at a friend's house for a surprise party. Because it was Bleu's 21st, we had Margarita's. It was alot of fun, but Bleu was tired, and I was feeling less than sociable. So we faked sick and went home to bed.

Of course, Bleu had to try out his new toy as soon as humanly possible. So we went to Provo with Gavin, his roommate, and thier dates to go shooting. It was pretty fun, but after about 45 minutes, I was feeling very fuzzy, and lightheaded. I volunteered to keep the blankets from blowing away and laid down for the most part. he seemed to like his new gun.

MOMMY'S JUST FAT!

Well, here's the results-- and there's just one! Bleu still thinks that the other one is hiding, but Dr. Lukinaar says there's just one but I have a big uterus.........and a big tummy. It was really fun to go and to see that it's actually in there growing! We even got to hear it's tiny, but fast little heartbeat.

I'm sure you mommies out there know what all this is, but in case some of you are lost like I was, that black circle on the upper left is the uterus, and the little blobby thing inside is a baby! on the bottom of the picture is has the measurements, (6.2mm) and approximate gestation (6 weeks).

So there it is! it's really exciting! You know, even after the TWO positive pregnancy tests, growing belly, and icky stomach, I was kindof not completely grasping the fact until we went to the doctor and she turned on the sound to hear that heartbeat. Bleu and I looked at eachother with the biggest smiles!! Now that it's sinking in, and there is something tangible it's a whole new excitement! I'm really looking forward to seeing all you girls in May.

As of right now we are not planning on finding out the sex yet. Bleu thinks that I won't be able to wait, but I'm going to try. Bleu wants a "Daddy's Girl" and I'm thinking I want a "Momma's Boy". So we'll see if I can contain myself through the summer. That's all I have for now!

Love you all!!

Mickaela and Bleu

The Good Pictures

So I just realized that because I'm posting this second, it will be on top of the list of postings. So I guess you can look at the next post before this one, or whatever you want. I'm still new with the blogging thing, so whatever.

Okay... here are the good pictures. And I don't mean good as in better, I mean in the other ones maybe half of the people in them are looking at two different cameras or just something else alltogether. Okay? So nobody go off and get all offended cause "Mickaela said the picture of me was bad!"

So my favorite is that we are all of the sudden "SHY". That's what my roommate Bethanie said. She always complained about our public displays of affection. Don't get her wrong, though, there were plenty. But we would always try and kiss in front of her just to get a reaction.

So when she saw this picture she said "So why are y'all shy now that you're married? Why weren't you shy when I was around??"

More being shy, but I think these are cute pictures. Kristi did a really good job at these. She wouldn't really tell us when she was taking pictures so alot of them were candid. I told her to take as many as she wanted because I think the subject in a candid shot is natural and looks more relaxed. That's just my preferance. I don't like posed pictures, so all of them are great in my opinion.

This, however, is the only picture that was planned. I don't know why but I have always wanted a picture like this. I was thinking that the different heights of the Lillies would make things a little more interesting, but I really liked how it turned out. Again, I give props to Kristi for making sure each flower was in it's own specific spot to get just enough of my face to catch some emotion and still hide enough to get the shot that I wanted. Bleu didn't like it cause he wasn't in the picture. :)

This one is my favorite mostly because I have NO IDEA when it was taken. I can't remember Kristi standing over us taking pictures. So when I saw it I was so surprised. I think it's such a cool perspective, I'm just bummed that you can't really see Bleu's face.

But it's still a great picture.

So that's all for now. Sorry I only update once every 6 Months, but life and school and job and everything is just crazy busy. Especially no internet at home.

See ya'll later, hopefully soon! Love you all.

PICTURES!!!

Finally!! My computers at school have been telling me that my disc is blank till today, but holy mongenzicka's it worked........ Here they are!!

Our beautiful family-- we didn't really get a great bunch to pick from, but this is the best we have. My favorite is Janie down in the front. She looks about the same throughout the series, but trying to hold a smile in more and more as you go along. It's great. It's also the only one where Nan isn't completely out of sight!! :)

So I was super creeped out that Dad and Redge were insistant on holding hands. They thought it was pretty darn funny and Mom and Jan seem to be okay with it, so whatever. I still think it's creepy so this is the last time I talk about this picture, got it?

So we'd been married for about an hour, and I was already afraid for my life. Well at least we were sealed, right?? :) I really don't know why picking me up and jumping into the cove was a grand idea, but I'm still alive.

Now onto the Good Pictures:

HERE IT IS!

Tammy tagged me so I guess I should fill it out....I was way excited to be involved in one of those "married people things!"

What is his name? Bleu Marcus Hawkley
How long have you been married? One Whole Month!
Who long did you date? Which time? The first time we dated about a month, then a week or so and then two weeks. Then he snatched me up before I could get away again. :)
How old is he? He's Turning 21 on March 28th.
Who eats more sweets? He Does. he always disappears to the neighbors house and comes home chewing Reeces Pieces or Hot Tamales.
Who said I love you first? He did.
Who is taller? he is by an inch or so but i'm taller when i wear my Doc's.
Who can sing better? me, i guess, but he sings more and whistles all the time.
Who is smarter? i think we are both really smart in different things. i'm more into reading and learning that way and he's more into building and technical things.
Who does the laundry? both, but he usually does.
Who pays the bills? he does.
Who sleeps on the right side of the bed? we haven't really decided yet, i started out on the right side, but we switched. right now we both sleep in the middle. lol
Who mows the lawn? AWW..... the joys of apartment living.............
Who cooks dinner? He usually does because i'm home late from school. but i cook every now and then.
Who drives? he always drives. i think i've only driven once. i love it.
Who is more stubborn? we are BOTH stubborn but i venture to say he's pretty stubborn sometimes. i have given up a number of times. (yes, dad it has happened on occasion)
Who kissed who first? I kissed him because he wouldn't do it!
Who asked who out first? he did, and i turned him down three times.
Who proposed? he did
Who has more siblings? he has 5 and i have 6.
Who wears the pants? he definately wears the pants. and that's great by me.

I want mom to fill this out and put it on our home page. Why don't mom and dad ever post???